I saw this wino, he was eating grapes. I was like, “Dude, you have to wait.” -Mitch Hedburg
There, Mitch Hedburg has officially made it into ImagoWeekly. Nothing like having a dead comedian write for a church newsletter!
But he’s right. I’m learning, slowly and painfully, that I just have to wait, even though it usually sucks. Patience is not a virtue that comes easily to me, but patience is what I have to practice right now in more ways than I’d like. I feel trapped in a fairly mind-numbing entry-level job that pays the bills, but only barely, and it’s probably going to be a while before I can find or create a better opportunity. In the meantime…I have to be patient. Elise and I really want kids, and we are in the process of adopting. But right now…you guessed it…we just have to wait. We don’t know how long.
I’m not sure which part I resent more—the waiting itself, or the indefinite-ness of it. I don’t know how long I will have to stay at my current job. I don’t know if Elise and I will be parents by Christmas or not. If I knew how long it would take, I could adjust my expectations, and it would be a lot easier to be patient. But, I don’t have that luxury.
This is the part where I feel like I should resolve the tension and say something about how “waiting is hard, but God has been showing me great things in this tough time, and I’m peaceful with it for now.” The problem is, He hasn’t, and I’m not. I am thoroughly un-peaceful with this. Let me be clear–I don’t think God has turned his back on me or anything; I actually believe He has a good plan in all this. It doesn’t mean I like waiting it out, though. I would very much like to vote for a different plan. Unfortunately, He’s not taking a poll.
So, I’m left with practicing patience for the time being, even if it is against my will. Maybe you are too, in which case, I’m sorry. You’re not the only one. I think it helps to know that, sometimes.
